Memoirs of my boulevard

I can feel my heart beating beneath my chest, Why do you scream at me? All I do is my best. My life is a nightmare, only I am awake, Why was it my fault? Where was my mistake? Sometimes it's OK, sometimes you're alright, Sometimes you don't get angry and we won't fight. But when something goes wrong, you never can help, You'll always hurt me again, and you will make me yelp. I give you love, but you don't care. Why do I have to live like this? It just isn't fair. Why is it you bring these tears? Why is it I have to live in fear? I just don't know how to heal these scars, It's like I'm a prisoner and can't break through your bars. Why do you have a hold over me? I feel like I can't leave. One day I will grow strong, one day I will believe. I wish I could do this, My life could be so bliss. Right now I have to stay here, the tears I will hide. I feel like I'm slowly starting to die inside.

 I was living a fantasy This is what i call things fall apart He was my world until i saw a sign Everything started making sense again The messages, the lies I am breaking down again because of him He won't give me answers, but silence I was too quick to think he had changed He fooled me twice, shame on me Another sleepless night...

So gentle you came. Like a whispering breeze, seeking still leaves. Creating night-time shadows... ... of a flock of caged birds inside my head. A whip of your tongue, as if trying to extinguish a flickering candle, Touched the back of my neck; electric tingles rippled down my spine! You expel poisonous words, twisting my mind, like Ophelia I am drowning In a sea of emotions that you hammer home like a wooden stave. Insanity and I are good friends, yet I hate you with all the hate I can muster Even dead flowers have a fragrance! Insanity has tainted me, taken me. I sleep...you call uninvited. You sleep...I cry silent tears of desperation... From the moment I was born, I was heading towards death, Darkness is just a part of that journey, a lonely track heading nowhere! The demons in my mind, sneak up when I least expect it, they don’t play fair They don’t stick to the rules, there are no rules, except ...just another moment of insanity!