Memoirs of my boulevard

My mind and heart are in a tug of war My heart's never been stretched like this before My heart is being pulled in two ways I hope it doesn’t snap and in place it stays While one side pulls, follow your heart have faith My brain yells that your time shouldn’t waste Sometimes the doubts yell running in your brain But then the love of the heart pulls it back again The facts in my head are glaring and pessimistic While my heart feels, hope stays strong but constant This dream points to a loving glowing gem Though they are actions remembered in my head Its just this doubt again and again and again So should I hold on believing it’s for the best? Or should I give up act just like the rest? Is it so wrong to hold on wait a little longer? Maybe by doing this I will get stronger I guess I should be true, listen to my heart So from its place it won’t depart Though logic in my head says it won’t work And that I will only get more hurt This dilemma is here for me...

Your lips on my neck, chest tightening Your fingertips tracing every curve of my thigh Short breaths in my ear as you gently nip the lobe And your fingers fit perfectly between the spaces in mine I can feel the pounding of your heart against my chest Echoing the hollowness of my own, of a rhythm that doesn’t exist Every touch brings me goosebumps, a feeling of chills Though the fire’s burning so hot and I can’t seem to fight it Our deep hums of unsatisfied desires trembling I’m dreading the walk to my car Because there’s nothing I wanted more than to just be with you One step outside and I can feel the temptation set in It’s humid and the dampness from the storm settles upon my soles The shadows embrace me as I sit under the streetlight Taking a deep breath, I lean my head back and close my eyes Picturing those nights we’d fall asleep together Your arm draped over me with my head right beneath your chin Your words on repeat, my mind drawing a blank I’ve never felt this torn and the nex...