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You are my addiction

I wake, work, eat, sleep, and dream you. This emotional journey before us - almost too much to bear sometimes. Yet, every time I hear the ringing of the phone, or see your name pop up online, I know that I am addicted to you. But it is far more than that, and please listen very closely. I am a very reasonable and sane person, not given to idle whims or fancies, not taken in any more by false hopes and promises. Yet, somehow, you are different - very different. I don't know what happened, or how or why, but I feel as though I fell out of a cloud, tumbling down to earth to a sure death - and at the last possible second, you caught me in your arms. Yes, I am addicted to you, but I know the consequences of addictions, and, fear not, I will not harm you or cause you pain in any way. Of that, I give you my humble word. I want to breathe you, to feel you, to taste you, and to hear your soft whispers against the sensitive nape of my neck - telling me that you're addicted, too. I wake, ...

Giving up on you...

Do I decide...decide that that was the last time? The last time I'd watch you walk away-- and be determined to follow or to at least know why? Can I call that the last time? Can I give up now? Do I give up now? Do I tell my heart it's time to move on? Perhaps now these 9 months can teach me something I never learned in school... That love is not always a happy thing? But does that mean I can move on? Can I give up now? Should I give up now? I watched you walk away again... You think I won't give up...so you just ignore me... So do I give up now, if you never would believe that I had? Do I give up now, and lose something I never had? Do I give up now--or can I continue to hope and to dream? ...Though hoping and dreaming are useless things... Do I give up on you now? And on my heart? Do I give up on you now? Can I give up on you now? ... ... ... ... ... ... I should... ......... But I don't know if I can..