Giving up on you...

Do I decide...decide that that was the last time?
The last time I'd watch you walk away--
and be determined to follow
or to at least know why?
Can I call that the last time?
Can I give up now?
Do I give up now?
Do I tell my heart it's time to move on?
Perhaps now these 9 months can teach me something I never learned in school...
That love is not always a happy thing?
But does that mean I can move on?
Can I give up now?
Should I give up now?
I watched you walk away again...
You think I won't give up...so you just ignore me...
So do I give up now, if you never would believe that I had?
Do I give up now, and lose something I never had?
Do I give up now--or can I continue to hope and to dream?
...Though hoping and dreaming are useless things...
Do I give up on you now?
And on my heart?
Do I give up on you now?
Can I give up on you now?
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I should...
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But I don't know if I can..