The curse of being in love with a married man - forbidden love

I fell for you hard and my feelings are strong
Loving you however is all kinds of wrong
But I don't mind that our affair has to be hidden
I desire you too much to simply let you go
Despite my mind screaming to go ahead and do so
I can’t get enough and I just have to have you
At first it was lust with nothing of real depth
Then love poured out of each and every breath
A forbidden love is what I have known,
A cut so deep that it cannot be sewn.
I see the deep sadness in your eyes,
The time is approaching to say our goodbyes.
I always knew it had to end this way.
When you're gone it feels like,
My whole world's gone with you
I thought love would be my cure
But now it's my disease
I try to act mature
But I'm a baby when you leave,
Yet I let you dance into my heart like a classical ballet.
I should have kept my feelings hidden,
Since we both know this love is forbidden.
If only I had destroyed this need,
Crushed and killed this loving seed from the beginning.
But I buried it deep and safe in my heart,
I was a fool, but acting so smart.
So now everyday I cry,
Because I know I have to say goodbye.
I try to let go of my emotions with every tear,
I find my feelings don’t disappear.
Because life can be so unfair,
I still hear your voice everywhere.
Its deep masculine inflections,
In my mind is still perfection.
It stirs my mind and ignites a fire,
My body trembles with each remembered desire.
The way you touch me when we make love,
Makes me swear you are sent from heaven above.
The passion always crackle in the air,
Two souls reaching out now left in despair.
All of these things have been put into motion,
All because of my selfish loving devotion.
You never said you loved me, not a single time
And yet I am a fool to believe you do
Jealously haunts me and envy is there
Intimate moments lying in bed,erotic fantasy torment my head.
Who is this woman who holds my fate?
I hate myself for these feelings I feel,
None of them were suppose to be part of the deal .
Is this relationship an illusion made up in my mind?
Waiting for the conclusion, where despair is all I'll find.
This curse i have brought upon mself...
Will I be able to end the pain of eating this forbidden fruit?