Lamentation

If I was transparent the world could see 
The scared little girl and the lion in me 
Sometimes I wonder can God tell us apart, 
Does he see the anger that blankets my heart? 

The light in me has slowly faded 
The price you pay when all love is jaded 
I am not at fault, my hands are clean 
Yet damage surrounds me and more is foreseen 

Crumbling under the weight of this head 
Starting to think my angels are dead 
The footprints of others all over my skin 
My love not returned and tossed in the bin 

Boiling point and I don't even care 
I now look at life with a cold hard stare 
Blood of my blood denying the shame 
Nobody's child with a borrowed name 

The edge creeping closer with every breath 
Is it the truth that sets you free or is it really death? 
Buried inside this version of me 
Loosing my grip on reality 

Close to explosion, I am about to blow 
The rage inside leaking with a constant flow 
If I could just hold on until I go insane 
Set my mind free, make a stranger of pain 

I don't think I can contain this blast 
Send my soul salvation and blank out the past 
So sick and tired of this ageing struggle 
When I close my eyes I see the piles of rubble 

I fight back, get up, try and try some more 
It's always the same I land face on the floor 
When You scream out as I have done 
Take a good look at what I have become 

As you beg for mercy with a desperate face 
Watch me walk away while you drown in disgrace 
It won't be long now until the bitter end 
The moment has passed to slow my descend 

Why could nobody see what I was worth? 
Faintly beating heart abandoned and alone 
Now justice is just an empty word 
I could have been saved if my cries had been heard.