My Complex Nature Is My Enemy

They say i am too complicated to understand God knows I cannot even understand myself I have 206 bones in my body and yet i do not understand the physical nature of me How am i then even supposed to understand the complexity of what i cannot see I have spent more years than i can remember trying to understand what makes the emotional being I cannot understand how i feel i do not understand what i love I have embraced my complex nature And yet still its not enough for the world to do the same for me I am not seeking to be understood and yet they try to understand me I am seeking to be loved with my complex nature And yet my complex nature has become my enemy